Nothing, happening.

As Is Press · Written as Anonymous

Notes On Nothing.

The Joy Of Being Nobody. Multiple appearances on Asterism’s bestseller list.

Notes On Nothing: The Joy of Being Nobody — yellow paperback, author credited as Anonymous.

In 2022, for a couple of weeks, my sense of being separate from everything seemingly vanished.

The book is an account of that, and of what was left afterwards. It was written anonymously, and published by As Is Press.

I had spent years working with therapeutic and spiritual traditions — Zen-informed Jungian analysis, somatic healing work, shamanic healing and ceremony — and had grown up around the Advaita Vedanta tradition of my father’s family in West Bengal. None of that quite prepared me for it, and none of it gave me a comfortable way to write about it. So I tried to write directly, and plainly.

The healing work and the conversations I offer both flow out of this meeting with Nothing.

For more related writing, and more about the journey of publishing as “Anonymous”, you can visit the Substack page.


Praise

What readers made of it

“My old friend went into his garden one day and had an experience of nothing. Of being nothing in the midst of everything. Of realising that everything is also nothing. Sometimes I feel I have this non-experience when I’m writing. It’s a very hard thing to put into words: impossible, actually. But sometimes poets and musicians and wise souls gesture towards it, beautifully. That’s what my old friend has done here. Give your self the slip for an hour. Read this book.”
Zadie Smith, author of White Teeth and The Fraud

“An enigma explained… I began to read it out of sheer curiosity, and soon found myself persuaded by the sincere intelligence of the voice… Valuable for its clarity and insight.”

Sir Philip Pullman, author of the His Dark Materials series

“It is difficult to find words to describe what happens when our sense of a separate self dissolves – because, as [the author] discovered in his garden, nothing happens. Here [he] has reached beyond the silence to craft an eloquent, personal-yet-nonpersonal testament to the true nature we all share. His account is all the more affecting as it unfolds within ordinary family life, and affirms its value. The truth he uncovers – beautiful and poignant in equal measure – leaves us with precisely nothing to do, except feel its light shine.”

Clare Carlisle, Professor of Philosophy, King’s College London

“To the question of why is there something rather than nothing, [the author’s] response is that there isn’t. And since there is nothing rather than something, he has nothing to persuade us of, nor any prescription to offer us either. That in itself comes as a relief. What’s shared instead in this beautiful book is an experience its author has had, and so which we might have too. There’s no map to this experience, which is the experience of nothing after all, but even to read of it is to feel one’s sense of self and world exerting a little less pressure and getting subtly rearranged.”

Devorah Baum, writer and filmmaker, author of On Marriage

“Like a saner P.K. Dick undergoing a gentler VALIS-type experience, [the author] offers insights on the weeks in which he ceased to be. This eloquent, sparse and wise book nudges readers sideways into the calm revelation of emptiness.”

John Tresch, Professor of History of Science and Art, the Warburg Institute

“This small gem of a book straddles the ego’s dilemma of falling into and then out of a deep enlightenment experience. It is a normal and natural struggle to vividly remember and make sense of such an experience, even though it is inclined to vanish in its own emptiness. As this captivating memoir reminds us of our true nature, it should be placed among the spiritual classics. Both inspired and inspiring, Notes on Nothing is a must-read for all those interested in exploring the miracle of consciousness.”

Michael Gellert, Jungian analyst and author of Way Of The Small

“A little gem of a book. Precious because there is so little writing about such experiences that isn’t packaged up for the purposes of selling enlightenment.”

Dougald Hine, author of At Work In The Ruins

“An instant spiritual classic.”

Simon Mundie

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